Being a Perfectionist


Now if you have read my first post called starting… you will have your warm beverage and your cozy blanket ready before you dive into reading this post.

I have a little bit of a problem, because I am a perfectionist. I get these thoughts in my head which seem like a great idea in the beginning and everything flows “perfectly”  but then when I actually pursue any of the thoughts, things usually go haywire! For example, I thought it was a great idea to start a blog! You write some random things on a page and everyone on the internet reads your blog and becomes inspired. Of course it doesn’t work this way. My mind has a way of taking all the negative out of my crazy ideas so it is like a fairy tale is going on inside my head 24/7. I had no idea how hard it was to start a blog! I mean you have to make sure that you know HOW to write, then you have to find people to read your blog and share your thoughts on other social media pages, which some people will not enjoy reading your blog because they have different ideas/ beliefs that you.  I thought that blogging would be very private because I could hide behind my laptop and type some words on a page. But it is not private at all, and that is a good thing. I have been reading other people’s blogs for a while now and I have seem to notice that I gravitate towards similar minded people. They have a schedule while blogging, they always look put together, they seem to have all of their ducks in a row. But then I read a random deep post about how it is all just a facade, a cover that they are hiding behind so that their life looks good on the outside but they have this feeling of struggle inside of them. I love those posts because I relate to them so much and I don’t feel like I have to work so hard at everything or be perfect because the reality is no person is perfect. I am grateful when people are open with how they truly are because it shows that we can’t fully rely on them, we can only rely on God.

I am not calling myself a blogging expert, I am not perfect, I will mess up but I am grateful right now in this moment. I love blogging so far and I hope to write on a blogging schedule and have one post on Monday and one post on Thursday, although I may write more, I may write less. I am working on being less of a perfectionist.

Starting…

“Sometimes the smallest step in the right direction ends up being the biggest step of your life. Tip toe if you must, but take the step.”(*pinterest quote http://www.pinterest.com/pin/142989356893581635/)

Anything decision in life requires a step. Some steps are big and others are small. We make decisions daily  in our lives so why is it so hard sometimes to make them? Personally in my life, I find it difficult to start anything. I guess it is because I do not want to fail or I just know that I will procrastinate. Why is it so hard to start some things?

Some reasons why I think it is difficult to start is because:

  1.  If you start something you have to finish it
  2. There may be things we have to change in our lives first
  3. We are comfortable where we are at
  4. We could fail

But here I am starting a blog. I am actually STARTING something. I made a decision and I am sticking to it. I think that when we put high expectations on anything we start, we become overwhelmed and fail. This blog will not be that. I want to enjoy writing and sharing my thoughts, joys, and passions on this blog. I will write about lifestyle, clothes, makeup, etc. I have all these thoughts in my head and sometimes it is a good idea to let them out once in a while. So come along if you like and enjoy this blog. Grab your warm beverage of any kind, curl up with a blanket and read about how I am just trying to live my intentional life.