I have a little bit of a problem, because I am a perfectionist. I get these thoughts in my head which seem like a great idea in the beginning and everything flows “perfectly” but then when I actually pursue any of the thoughts, things usually go haywire! For example, I thought it was a great idea to start a blog! You write some random things on a page and everyone on the internet reads your blog and becomes inspired. Of course it doesn’t work this way. My mind has a way of taking all the negative out of my crazy ideas so it is like a fairy tale is going on inside my head 24/7. I had no idea how hard it was to start a blog! I mean you have to make sure that you know HOW to write, then you have to find people to read your blog and share your thoughts on other social media pages, which some people will not enjoy reading your blog because they have different ideas/ beliefs that you. I thought that blogging would be very private because I could hide behind my laptop and type some words on a page. But it is not private at all, and that is a good thing. I have been reading other people’s blogs for a while now and I have seem to notice that I gravitate towards similar minded people. They have a schedule while blogging, they always look put together, they seem to have all of their ducks in a row. But then I read a random deep post about how it is all just a facade, a cover that they are hiding behind so that their life looks good on the outside but they have this feeling of struggle inside of them. I love those posts because I relate to them so much and I don’t feel like I have to work so hard at everything or be perfect because the reality is no person is perfect. I am grateful when people are open with how they truly are because it shows that we can’t fully rely on them, we can only rely on God.
I am not calling myself a blogging expert, I am not perfect, I will mess up but I am grateful right now in this moment. I love blogging so far and I hope to write on a blogging schedule and have one post on Monday and one post on Thursday, although I may write more, I may write less. I am working on being less of a perfectionist.