I am back with another blog post! November just flew and I am very excited to be blogging again.
I love the month of December, other than it being cold here. Christmas is on its way and that makes me very excited! Now before I moved out of my parents home, Christmas was not my favourite time of year. I did NOT like Christmas music, or decorations until later on in December. I do not know why I was so against it when I lived at home.
When I moved out a few years ago, I got so excited! There is something about Christmas that just makes me smile now. I think that now that I have a place of my own to decorate and that I do not live with more of my family, I cherish the time when we do see each other. Thanksgiving, Christmas, birthdays! Those are the times when we all get together again.
What is your favourite time holiday? Do you get to spend it with your loved ones? Make sure you cherish the times you have with your family, especially when you live at home because time goes quickly. Hug your family today or tell them you love them! They never will get tired of hearing it from you!
Last week I was full steam ahead on blogging two days a week! I had so many ideas rolling around in my head and I could not get them down on paper fast enough.
Then life got a little busier and I kept on forgetting my ideas or I wouldn’t feel like writing them down. I was tired and I jumped onto blogging way to fast. I thought more about number of views than people sitting at their computer reading my thoughts on the internet. I was becoming obsessed! I become obsessed a lot, especially with new things that are around me. I never thought of myself as the type of person to become obsessed with anything but the more that I think about the past, the more I see the obsessive behaviors.
If you have read my last post, you already know that I am a perfectionist. Obsession and perfectionism go hand in hand. I get excited about a new fad or object, get all these crazy ideas in my head, then I want to do it all perfectly with the scenario that I have already composed in my head. But life does NOT work that way. I should have that figured out by now. I am the person who is still banging their head with a mallet despite it hurting but I can not seem to stop myself because maybe if I hit it on the side of my head instead of the front, it will hurt less than hitting it on the front of my head. Can anyone relate to that?
So rather posting this on Monday, I thought I would post it today because I am trying to break out of my perfectionist ways. I will not be posting anymore blogs for a month. I feel that God wants me to step away from technology. I have been too heavily reliant on my phone and computer and not spending time in prayer and devotions with Him. Taking this month off should get me back to why I started writing these in the first place, not for the numbers but even if it is just for that one other person reading my blog and relating to what the words on this page. Let me ask you one question before I go, are you listening to God when He is talking to you, or are your idols blocking His words from reaching you?
Hope to be back in a month!
Now if you have read my first post called starting… you will have your warm beverage and your cozy blanket ready before you dive into reading this post.
I have a little bit of a problem, because I am a perfectionist. I get these thoughts in my head which seem like a great idea in the beginning and everything flows “perfectly” but then when I actually pursue any of the thoughts, things usually go haywire! For example, I thought it was a great idea to start a blog! You write some random things on a page and everyone on the internet reads your blog and becomes inspired. Of course it doesn’t work this way. My mind has a way of taking all the negative out of my crazy ideas so it is like a fairy tale is going on inside my head 24/7. I had no idea how hard it was to start a blog! I mean you have to make sure that you know HOW to write, then you have to find people to read your blog and share your thoughts on other social media pages, which some people will not enjoy reading your blog because they have different ideas/ beliefs that you. I thought that blogging would be very private because I could hide behind my laptop and type some words on a page. But it is not private at all, and that is a good thing. I have been reading other people’s blogs for a while now and I have seem to notice that I gravitate towards similar minded people. They have a schedule while blogging, they always look put together, they seem to have all of their ducks in a row. But then I read a random deep post about how it is all just a facade, a cover that they are hiding behind so that their life looks good on the outside but they have this feeling of struggle inside of them. I love those posts because I relate to them so much and I don’t feel like I have to work so hard at everything or be perfect because the reality is no person is perfect. I am grateful when people are open with how they truly are because it shows that we can’t fully rely on them, we can only rely on God.
I am not calling myself a blogging expert, I am not perfect, I will mess up but I am grateful right now in this moment. I love blogging so far and I hope to write on a blogging schedule and have one post on Monday and one post on Thursday, although I may write more, I may write less. I am working on being less of a perfectionist.
“Sometimes the smallest step in the right direction ends up being the biggest step of your life. Tip toe if you must, but take the step.”(*pinterest quote http://www.pinterest.com/pin/142989356893581635/)
Anything decision in life requires a step. Some steps are big and others are small. We make decisions daily in our lives so why is it so hard sometimes to make them? Personally in my life, I find it difficult to start anything. I guess it is because I do not want to fail or I just know that I will procrastinate. Why is it so hard to start some things?
Some reasons why I think it is difficult to start is because:
- If you start something you have to finish it
- There may be things we have to change in our lives first
- We are comfortable where we are at
- We could fail
But here I am starting a blog. I am actually STARTING something. I made a decision and I am sticking to it. I think that when we put high expectations on anything we start, we become overwhelmed and fail. This blog will not be that. I want to enjoy writing and sharing my thoughts, joys, and passions on this blog. I will write about lifestyle, clothes, makeup, etc. I have all these thoughts in my head and sometimes it is a good idea to let them out once in a while. So come along if you like and enjoy this blog. Grab your warm beverage of any kind, curl up with a blanket and read about how I am just trying to live my intentional life.